Long time ago...

It has been so long since the last time that I wrote anything...
After a certain turn of events, my subconscious ceased all activicties related to pleasure and inteligence developing.
However, it wasn't a situation that came to my advantage...
Unfortunately, my inconscious lifted some barriers in order to stop me from ever returning to that...

Getting confused? Let me try and sintetize it...

Until some time ago I always felt a huge delight in reading and writting, I was also in the processe of writting a book (it would never be published or anything) that was relatted to my life story and was being developped through my dreams.
You can say that in someway it was like an bloody autobiography of my subconscious.
Somewhere in time some events made me throw it all in to the burning flames... page by page until all those 114 pages were nothing more than ashes...
Actually, it was a boring crappy story... but the picture of burning it was forever imprinted in my mind... Even the blog that I had which contained most of the chapters was locked. It still exists, but locked away in a corner of the web where only I can access it...
So many times have I tried to open a new blog and start it all over again... in vain...
The words don't came out anymore... there's always a blank that doesn't allow me to continue...
But the feeling of void and this burning desire to write it's always present...

So why now? ... because I need it...
Just came out from my first appointement with the doctor, and now there's finally a diagnose to what I have... (I will go into detaills on that for now)...
Even if it was just a first appointment, something gave me a click and made me vomit out something into this fresh new blog... will it maintain? who knows...

Until next time, maybe...