I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
And every second I waste is more than I can take!

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

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que tristeza ja nao poder ouvir musica alta e aos berros (mesmo com os phones)...

SKUNK ANANSIE

"You'll Follow Me Down"

SURVIVED, TONIGHT
I MAY BE GOING DOWN
COS EVERYTHING GOES ROUND TOO
TIGHT, TONIGHT
AND AS YOU WATCH ME CRAWL
YOU STAND FOR MORE

AND YOUR PANIC STRICKEN
BLOOD WILL THICKEN UP, TONIGHT

COS I DON'T WANT YOU
TO FORGIVE ME
YOU'LL FOLLOW ME DOWN
YOU'LL FOLLOW ME DOWN
YOU'LL FOLLOW ME DOWN

SURVIVE, TONIGHT
I SEE YOUR HEAD'S EXPOSED
SO WE SHALL KILL
CONSTRUCTIVE MIGHT
S'RIGHT
AS YOUR EMOTIONS FOOL YOU
MY STRONG WILL RULE

I WON'T FEEL RESTRAINT
WATCHING YOU CLOSE SENSE DOWN
I CAN'T COMPENSATE
THAT'S MORE THAN I'VE GOT TO GIVE

Musica... just a memorie/state of mind

Losing sleep
in a waking dream

A recurring face I see
comes to pass my way

Still, my heart,
will you please be still, my heart
In this world of change
you keep turning me round again

[interlude]

In my mind
could it be that I'm just a fool for love
Is blind to danger

Is this faith,
then why should I
Hesitate when love would dance with a stranger?

[interlude]

Shout it loud from the rooftop high
Let it burn inside,
and try only to fade and die

If I knew all there was to learn,
Every twist and turn,
why do I still try?


---- Vangelis - Still my heart ----

Just some songs...

Hi there...
It has been quite some time since I showed up here...

I was just listening to some songs and I would like to share one...

Linkin Park - In the End

It starts with one thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing, I don't know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try, keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme, to explain in due time
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me (in the end)
You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I

Chorus

I’ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know (2x) Chorus




DON'T know why but I want to sing it OUT LOUD screaming... (I won't... so don't ask me to)...
Cheers.

Long time ago...

It has been so long since the last time that I wrote anything...
After a certain turn of events, my subconscious ceased all activicties related to pleasure and inteligence developing.
However, it wasn't a situation that came to my advantage...
Unfortunately, my inconscious lifted some barriers in order to stop me from ever returning to that...

Getting confused? Let me try and sintetize it...

Until some time ago I always felt a huge delight in reading and writting, I was also in the processe of writting a book (it would never be published or anything) that was relatted to my life story and was being developped through my dreams.
You can say that in someway it was like an bloody autobiography of my subconscious.
Somewhere in time some events made me throw it all in to the burning flames... page by page until all those 114 pages were nothing more than ashes...
Actually, it was a boring crappy story... but the picture of burning it was forever imprinted in my mind... Even the blog that I had which contained most of the chapters was locked. It still exists, but locked away in a corner of the web where only I can access it...
So many times have I tried to open a new blog and start it all over again... in vain...
The words don't came out anymore... there's always a blank that doesn't allow me to continue...
But the feeling of void and this burning desire to write it's always present...

So why now? ... because I need it...
Just came out from my first appointement with the doctor, and now there's finally a diagnose to what I have... (I will go into detaills on that for now)...
Even if it was just a first appointment, something gave me a click and made me vomit out something into this fresh new blog... will it maintain? who knows...

Until next time, maybe...